Interest or not

Author: interestornot

  • Volunteering feels good. It feels good to help people. At our organization we have volunteer attorneys, volunteer doctors, volunteer dentists and volunteer opticians. Many of our volunteers do not have as prestigious titles at work. Many of our volunteers help in our organization donating food and clothes to people who have a difficult time affording food and people who can rarely afford to buy clothes.

    Here in Southern Oregon I am safe at home. I live in a safe neighborhood. I receive SSDI. I can afford to pay rent and buy groceries. I went back to work part time and am able to save money. The whole truth is when I started volunteering last fall at our organization in the larger community in Rogue Valley my eyes have been opened.

    My part time work is for a temporary work agency. When there is work to be had I can work. Since I started volunteering I signed up for less work opportunities and spent much of my savings. The opening of my eyes to humans in need helps me to volunteer my time with my hands, handing out food and clothes.

     I also see the need to rise up out of relying on SSDI. I spent some of my savings to become a business consultant late last winter. Since becoming a business consultant this Spring I pivoted the designation of my business to advertising. I have a lot of work to do to advertise other businesses in Rogue Valley.

     I need to sign up for more temp work agency jobs to save money. It’s important to save money safe and secure. I choose putting my money I earn directly into my bank account. I don’t have the problems earning money that people I volunteer to help do.

    Yesterday with our organization a group of us volunteers went into the community into a residential neighborhood and knocked on peoples doors canvassing. We signed up new members and filled in forms for our new members who have benefit requests. One new member needs his teeth to be cleaned and needs to meet with a Doctor about his ulcers. Another new member needs clothes. The neighborhood we went into was mixed use. There were some stores and some houses and apartments.

     One apartment we went to on the side of a busy street was barely safe. The way it was designed was so that the living quarters are cramped. The hallway is just big enough to walk single file through, or very carefully around a person walking in the opposite direction. The hallway is narrow. There are cigarette filters all over the floor of the hallway and graffiti on the walls of the hallway. It’s clear that the owner of the land these days the property is on has not put money into the safety of the apartment.

     Graffiti has many purposes. Graffiti can inspire and lift people up and is created with the permission of property owners. Graffiti can also intimidate people and is created without permission to mark territory. The graffiti in the apartment was there to mark the territory.

    The new member we signed up who needs to meet with a doctor is an elderly man, his working days are over. The younger man we signed up as a new member who needs more clothes works in a field.

    Much of the land that is Southern Oregon is an agricultural fortune. Many kinds of food are grown in the region. Grapes and Pears are two of the most grown foods in the region. Most of the Grapes grown in the region are used to make wine. There are many marijuana farms in the region.

    Today I’m going grocery shopping. I’m going to drive to a grocery store and fill a cart with food that will last me through the week. The grocery store I often go to is filled with fresh vegetables and fruit. All the food I need to eat I can buy in the grocery store and take home and fill the kitchen with.

    I feel fortunate living in an environment and neighborhood that is safe where there are no known gangs. Gangs and illegal drugs go hand in hand.

    It’s good to have legitimate work. At the temporary employment agency I get paid over the counter. When I work the money I earn is deposited directly into my bank account. I grew up trusting banks with my money. Some banks have been in news for funding terrorism and for stealing from their account holders. I am confident where I bank my money is safe and secured.

    The organization I volunteer with is one of a kind and one of many sister organizations across the country. We are Northwest Seasonal Workers Association in Medford Oregon.

  • Perception and value

    Something good about dust is the fact that on still objects dust can be removed. Dust accumulates on objects that are still. Objects at rest remain at rest and collect dust. If the dust is cleared away regularly, value and condition objects are in remain the same. I’m glad I haven’t made a sale yet. I don’t have time yet to follow through and nurture the relationship made when a potential customer becomes a customer by making a purchase.

    Making a sale might not be too hard and when a buyer is left with a product from the owner of a business, they bought from, the owner of the business is wise to make time to answer phone calls from the buyer and answer questions the buyer has about their product and answer questions the buyer has about the business and answer questions from consumers.

    The owner of the business that sold the product might have legal responsibilities to service the product and as the seller, has a social obligation to the buyer. Do business in the open and in a bright light where you are comfortable and confident speaking to the people there and where you have a good view of the specific sales environment. A business that appears and makes sales, then disappears is called a scam and rip-off. Be careful where you spend your money and who you spend your money with. Money doesn’t grow on trees.

  • Health, money, property, land time management

    I am a success story

     Since I got back into housing and through taking my prescribed medication every day, my mental health has improved very much. I went back to work part time. And I started a business. That’s right I am a business owner. My business is registered with the Secretary of State of Oregon’s Office to do business in Oregon and where it is based in my home office.

     I rent my home. It’s not mine in the sense of the land and the building. I own my business. I own the tools and supplies that make my office what it is. I own my minivan and everything in my home. The space I occupy in the apartment and parking spot I lease.

    I am an entrepreneur with potential

    My business is in my name. I am the owner of it. My business goes with me when I leave my office and goes with me in to my community and to the persons who I introduce to my business. My business is three months and about 9 days old. My business is in it’s infancy. It took a lot of time and money to start my business and create sales tools.

    My time is precious

    I need to work for an hourly wage with a local and credible business I have experience working for and increase my savings, to invest time in my business. My business doesn’t breathe like a human and doesn’t eat. My business needs more of my time to develop and it is in perfect condition. My business is paused until I have saved enough money to invest time to make sales.

  • Putting the past in it’s place

    Co-vid is over people. Co-vid is long gone. Co-vid has been over for years and years. It’s old news. It’s not news today. It’s creepy when someone says because Co-vid and list reasons why their business is doing poorly. Co-vid was terrible, it lasted for years, many people died. Many people lost their businesses and their savings.

    Co-vid is over. The pandemic is over. The pandemic and co-vid are gone and of the past and the reason why I’m bringing them up is to say people come across as a winey fool when bringing up co-vid like it’s a current matter. The only current topic co-vid relates to is few and far between people who are holding onto co-vid like it’s a thing and have a difficult time living in the present Spring 2025. For years the vast majority of people are not suffering from a rampant contagious disease.

    And for years people are not being asked to shelter in place. The only place where co-vid should be in today’s world is a memory of the past. Don’t let the past take too much time today. Successful history teachers know to live in the present, moment by moment and know how to put a history topic whether it was good or was negative in the context of the past.

  • Long ago through to current day

    I remember when I was a young boy I had recurring dreams of being in a Mall. It was the mall in my home town. The town where I was born. A indoor mall. In my dreams I was in a clothes department hiding under a rack of clothes. I was scared, anxious and alone. This dream reoccurred to me many times at night asleep. Since then that Mall closed and was demolished. In it’s place is an open air mall on the same foot print of land. It takes up more land today.

    As a young boy my dreams got worse. In my dreams the mall closed and was vacant and dormant. Locked up. No business signs, no cars parked in the sprawling parking lot. Almost like in a ghost town. Sometimes in those uncomfortable dreams at night while asleep I had no where to go. I had no shelter. I crawled through a hole in a wall into the indoor Mall escaping from an unknown danger. Those dreams while asleep at night also reoccurred. I haven’t had those uncomfortable and severely uncomfortable dreams in many years.

    At night in my home safe asleep in my bed my dreams have evolved. I’m a middle aged man. Snapping out of an uncomfortable dream at night while asleep in bed is much easier for me to accomplish. I’m the same human I was 35 years ago and many things have changed. I’ve grown a lot and I moved. I live half way across the country from the town where I was born.

    People have changed in 35 years. The same people who scared me, who I felt anxious around and felt unsafe near are no longer in my life. I moved on and away from those people and predicaments. Far away to a community that was new to me.

    I have many people to thank for helping me leave those dangerous problematic people far far away. Many people helped me when I arrived in the community where I live. Volunteers donating their time gave me food when I was hungry. Volunteers opened up shelters for me to sleep in at night safe and secure and warm protected from the elements. People I did not know helped me, volunteers.

    Tax Payers helped me. Social Security Disability Insurance was awarded to me. From every year and month and days that become weeks, the accumulation of work I’ve done paying taxes helped fund Social Security. I got help applying for SSDI and eventually was awarded SSDI. I have so many people to thank. People I have not met in person helped me working in Social Services.

    I’m alive and well today thanks to the help of many people. Doctors created medicine in a laboratory I receive as a prescription helps me with my mental health. I am very fortunate the medicine I need for my sanity is available at pharmacies and I have a prescription for. I have very many things to be grateful for.

    It feels good here in my home I lease. It’s not my own home but I can buy residential real estate in the future. In my future. Not a future in real estate terms that is sold like a time share. A piece of land with a house on it I buy and live on. The future. Life is good. The people in my life support me, encourage me and care about me.

    I was asleep at home in my bed 20 minutes ago. My dream got a little bit awkward. I snapped out of it and woke up. Reflecting in my minds eye where I was dreaming about earlier tonight helped. Awkward moments happen sometimes. I’m not immune to feeling awkward. Sometimes when I’m somewhere like a mall for the first time there might be an awkward moment while I’m adjusting to being in the environment.

    An awkward moment might happen if someone says or does something inappropriate. It might not be terrible and at the same time is uncalled for behavior. Everyone is different. Often an awkward moment can pass in a few seconds or a minute with no harm done, no intentional foul.

    I think that is one of the beauties of life. There are many people living together. Some people live alone. In public now I am not. I am in my bedroom at my desk. When in public everyone doesn’t behave the same. We all have heart beats, and our own breaths and facial expressions. People are in public for many reasons. Many different reasons. There are people to avoid and there are people to share time together with, enjoy being around and learn good lessons from.

  • Conflict resolution might be easy to speak about

    the boy and girl are not speaking

    I read a message on a news report today that said “who are you fighting for? It made me think of many years ago when I was a young boy. When I was a young child my parents separated, divorced and moved far away from each other. Me and my sisters were split between two homes. Our parents held a lot of anger and resentment toward each other. Their negativity toward each other was clear to us kids. Although we were not encouraged to fight with our fists. The statement “who are you fighting for” brought back a memory of those tough times when us kids were being told two very different stories from our parents.

     At a young age we relied on our parents for everything. It wasn’t until we moved away from our parents homes into the world and on our own when, speaking for myself I had a sense of relief. When parents quarrel, their kids might be brought into the argument and sending mixed messages are a result.

     One parent says one thing, the other parent says a different thing. That’s a mixed message. When kids are young and rely on their parents for everything and get mixed messages from their parents those messages have a large effect and cause problems in a family.

    Some parents argue then work it out and are stronger because they communicated through their problem to a solution. That’s better for the whole family.

    When parents argue sometimes the only thing that gets them to stop arguing is time and space and distance. They have to separate for their own health and for their children’s health. An argument can get so divisive that the solution is to move away from each other into different homes.

    Unfortunately this happens more these days for the reasons a couple have to call it quits. A couple of adults can get pregnant quick and if the couple are not meant to be together lives are changed. Sometimes it makes sense for a couple who are pregnant to separate. Better to call it quits than to be in a violent relationship.

    That brings me back to the news report about “who are you fighting for”. Us kids were not encouraged to fight with our fists. Boxing is a solution for many families. If you are a Boxer you know that challenging an opponent in a ring is much better than fighting without gloves. A Referee can help keep both Boxers from throwing punches below the belt and call off a Boxer who has clearly wounded their opponent before lasting harm is caused. Boxing is a dangerous sport and better than fighting without gloves.

    Communicating through a problem to a solution is better for everyone. No injuries, no injury. Agreeing to disagree is one way to cool off. Revisit a topic with a cool head. Take time with words from the disagreement instead of counteracting immediately.

    People in a party don’t see eye to eye on everything. There might be a leader of the party most people in the party agree with and if you consider everyone in the party, it doesn’t mean each person sees eye to eye on every matter. There might be a clear leader and is doesn’t mean that everyone in a party agrees 100% every time.

    There are challenges in life. It’s good to have challenges. A challenge can teach a person things they never thought were possible. Managing one challenge at a time is a good plan. Sometimes there are multiple challenges, and a good practice might be to give each challenge a different timeline. There is one you. If you have multiple challenges, it’s not simple to schedule them apart. You might not be able to afford to hire an assistant to help manage your responsibilities at home and at work.

    People are faced with challenges every day. A challenge doesn’t need to become violent. There might not be a reason to box it out. Talking through to a solution is better.

    “fight the good fight” is confusing. It’s a blanket statement without more words attached to it. There’s only enough room for one winner of the blanket. Fight the good fight a referee could say and make more sense to start a boxing match where opponents wear gloves, and stand inside a ring. More sense than taking it to a street with no rules.

    It’s important to get enough exercise. Some people get their aggression out safely in a wreck room.

    Learn to control your aggression and maybe you’ll never need to be violent to defend yourself or someone else.

    Think then act

  • At a bar in town it’s almost last call

    It’s almost 2am. I’m in my home office at my desk. There are things to do. Often over the years I wake up early in the morning around 2am. I’m awake for a while then go back to sleep. It’s a cool spring night. There’s not much going on here. My neighborhood sounds quiet from here inside. In town it’s close to last call at a bar.

    Asleep in bed in my dream I was at an airport. Present day. A woman was having sex on a table in front of a group of people. Another woman was sitting on the smooth solid floor with her back against the wall and legs straight out in front of her. I walked to her and offered my hand to her. We walked away and left the airport together. I don’t know the name of the city where we were in the airport. We left on foot. She didn’t need to fly on an airplane. We left together.

    My grandparents had a membership to the Ogden Golf Club. When we were young children my sisters and I would visit our grandparents in summer. They brought us golfing at the club. I remember mostly practicing with a putter. The club had a pool were we went swimming and ate lunch at a restaurant. Back at our grandparents home my grandpa showed me a coffee cup with a hole in one message imprinted on it he won at the golf club.

    Earlier in the day I visited a book store. I’m 47. A woman at the book store sold me a Magazine about Oregon and told me of a good restaurant near the coast. The woman is beautiful. Her smile is pretty. The shirt she wore at work covered her tits. I thanked her for selling me the Magazine.

    Life is good

  • For those trying to quit watching porn

    Porn addiction causes many problems. I watched porn on the internet not long ago. I can remember the scene if I focus on the memory in my mind. Images and photos and videos and graphics are like that. Some stay in a persons mind longer. Other visuals seem to be forgotten soon after a person looks away. Porn addiction can be that way. If you’re not looking to the porn on the screen, you’re looking somewhere else. Or maybe you’re doing something completely different. I hope you’re safe and not a safety risk to anyone else.

     To overcome pornography, (I’m much better than I was) I stop looking, watching and listening to erotica. The specific porn content a person is addicted to matters. “Soft porn” is more extreme than looking at a photo of a person who looks beautiful to you. Know your limits. If you can get comfortable looking at photos of beautiful people wearing clothes you might be able to get a dopamine rush without looking at porn.

     Porn creeps up and down, to and fro. If you’re looking at soft porn, temptation builds as more and more skin is revealed and less and less clothes are worn. Porn addiction is either getting closer to “climax” or going from it. The visual stimulation increases and decreases like a wave on the shore of a beach in the form of people in various stages of nudity and sex.

    There are many theories about porn. One theory is it is healthy, and safe. Watching too much porn is not healthy. Try bringing yourself to climax somewhere private where you are safe without watching porn. Religious leaders might look down on others for masturbating, an addiction to porn might have nothing to do with pleasing a religious leader.

    Watching porn might be safe in private and it’s not a secret the source of the porn is making profit. If you’re addicted to porn or are worried that you’re watching too much porn for your own good, odds are the content you’ve watched is becoming more extreme. Everyone is unique and knows what turns them on. It’s up to you to turn off the porn show, website, channel, etc… It might not be that easy.

    The more amount of time you watch porn the more invested the creator of the content is in getting their product consumed.

    If you watch a lot of porn some of the photos on the home page of a news website might display a photo of a sexy model. THE PHOTO IS LINKED to more sexy photos.

    Remember you are in control. It’s your use of internet and Wi-Fi and mobile data and you have the power to do with your technology and magazine as you will.

  • Be aware of your environment

    Landscape with huge blue mountains with reflection in lake.

    An unsecured internet line is a risk. It’s not funny. It’s not fun for you unless you have fun scaring people, and it’s not fun for your neighbor. From an American perspective Houthi’s are bad news. Are they halfway around the world and in United States? Houthi’s terrorized Cargo Ships carrying products you might have on order, traveling to and from the Arabian Sea to Gulf Oman in and out of the Persian Gulf.

    Secure communications are paramount to travel these days. GPS Maps help people around the world get to where their going safe and on schedule. GPS is a big deal. Whether you’re walking or driving, a GPS Map is designed to help get you there. The same goes for traveling on water.

    I’m surprised satellite’s offer their global positioning technology to the public for free due to sabotage by some users of the internet and of Wi-Fi. To use a GPS Map requires a connection to the internet or to Wi-Fi or mobile data while you’re in route. If you’re connection to the internet or Wi-Fi or mobile data is compromised at any time, a threat actor might try to redirect a GPS map signal sending a victim to the wrong place at the wrong time. Are you interested in learning how to beef up the security of your internet and Wi-fi? Cnet.com shared a lot of practical ways to do just that at their article written straight forward in clear English.

    You don’t want to be in the wrong place anytime. The wrong place means it’s dangerous. The wrong place might be infected with a virus.

    Be careful where you get your news. Viral news has become popular and might not be credible. It’s very important to be aware of your environment, specifically when traveling internationally. Before you plan to travel to a foreign country check US Embassy news about the safety of where you’re considering traveling to.

    There are many safe destinations to travel to around the world. If you don’t have experience traveling to a foreign country there are many good destinations to visit in United States.

    Travel with someone you know and trust. Visit a book store and pick up a current book with travel reviews. Read about people and places at a popular destination. A Geography Teacher at School and a Cultural Studies Teacher at School are good sources of information about worthy destinations to visit around the world.

    Tell people you know and trust when you’re planning to travel to a foreign country. Before you leave tell people you know and trust when you’re planning to be back.

    On a Vessel on the Persian Gulf to a destination, voyagers float through Gulf Oman on to the Arabian Sea. From the Arabian Sea, Vessels travel in many directions and to many Ports including United States coastal waters and Harbors where the people on board and products reach land.

    The movie is based on a true story

    Hearing a foreign accent in United States might be good and depending where you are in US might be a daily occurrence. The same goes with seeing a person’s skin color who is much darker or lighter than yours. Everyone’s skin color is not the same. People with the lightest skin color and the darkest skin color work very hard to live in peace. People with very different accents speaking different languages work very hard to live in peace.

     When someone has a different skin color than yours and speaks a different language than you it might be a welcome surprise and if you’re not used to seeing and hearing people from a different culture you might feel anxious. Anxious because they look and sound different than the people you are used to being around.

    Culture is a tricky word. The word culture has many uses. A conversation about people might include the statement “they’re from a different culture”, referring to persons who have a darker or lighter skin color and speak a foreign language. A conversation a farmer has at work might have to do with producing agriculture. Agriculture is food.

    English can be a difficult language to learn if it’s not your first language. Just remember, If you’re reading the ingredients label on a container of yogurt and it reads “live bifidus cultures”, it’s referring to the fermented dairy in the container and is not human. Agriculture, and “work culture” are are not the same. A strong work culture is a way to describe people who work for a company. The word culture has many uses and often easier to understand if English is your first language.

     Don’t get stuck in the yogurt

     As hard as people try to live a healthy life in peace, problems happen.

    There are slaves controlled by terrorists. Terrorists cause problems for people. In recent news a man escaped captivity from a house where his mom kept him captive for many years. She terrorized him. Many years past before he escaped. She was exposed for keeping him captive in secret locked in a house away from other people while she was living in a community unaware of her terrorist behavior in United States.

     Houthi’s are terrorists in the Middle East we don’t want in United States. People from the Middle East live around the world including United States and are generally peaceful. Unfortunately conflicts in the Middle East have been ongoing for many years and continually drawn US Military to, to deescalate.

    Americans live around the world and are generally peaceful. Americans are also known for having the largest and most formidable Military on Earth. Countries around the world rely on US Military for protection. Keeping the peace is not a simple task.

    Dove holding a branch is a sign of peace

  • Both sides now

    In news recently are reports of people saying having a relationship with God will relieve them of depression. I disagree and I love God. While some people’s depression might be relieved by having a relationship with God other people’s depression is more severe. A person experiencing severe depression might have been caused by a traumatic experience and requires taking medicine usually in the form of prescribed medication. Having good relationships with others can relieve depression. Good relationships with people are important. When you get along with the people in your life, social interactions become easier.

     It’s easier to meet new people and make more friends when you get along well with the people you know. Humans have evolved to live together. This is how life is created. A man and a woman living together are often mates and bring new life into the world. Life is a celebration of moments. Every moment is not extraordinary. One moment to the next are usually ordinary.

    A moment might be remembered as an incident and might pass by in the blink of an eye. Adults in business often talk about an incident in a negative tone of voice. For example, “there was an incident at work today” is an opening statement about something that happened at work that was not wanted.

     For example, if there are people involved in a car accident it is usually described as an incident. The details of the incident include everyone that was involved. Some drivers might stop at the scene of a car accident to help. Depending on the size of the accident, all the drivers on the road might need to stop. If a car accident appears to be small less drivers stop to help, passing by in the blink of an eye.

    When something good happens at work it’s usually talked about with a description explaining what was extraordinary, out of the ordinary. It was so and so’s birthday today. We brought cupcakes for everyone at the office to celebrate the person’s birthday. A birthday celebrated is an extraordinary moment in a long series of ordinary moments.