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Category: A story to tell

  • My prediction of the use of Artificial Intelligence.

    There is a lot of hype surrounding AI. Hundreds of billions of dollars are invested in developing AI. The hype around AI reminds me of the dotcom burst. A lot of the excitement about AI will fade. A lot of investment in AI will be lost. The use of AI in mainstream media is about 2 years old. A lot of good will come of AI. Almost everyone has a computer at home. People tend to use their computer at home differently than a computer they use at work. Most of my computer use has not been work related. I’ve earned some money designing websites 25 years ago. The money I earned designing websites I made at home in my home office.

    It’s not simple to explain how AI is used because there are very many uses for it. The first thing that comes to mind with the use of AI is in search on a search engine. When I type in a question or statement to a search engine I receive an immediate response.

    It’s like dropping a stone into still water. There is a ripple effect. The first ripple is the response to the data I typed. The first ripple is what I’m looking for, subsequent ripples are responses to the same data I typed. Subsequent ripples I receive in a variety of media messages and ads that have something to do with the data I typed. I might receive a ripple of information in response to data I typed to a search engine in a social media feed.

    The effect of the data I type has a more intelligent response from my computer and from my phone. Data I type onto my computer AI amplifies in a variety of responses. AI is manufactured in modern computers and are more intelligent than older computers. Computers calculate and compute input. With AI input a computer receives is better at mirroring human behavior.

    8/22/2025

    The AI bubble in relation to the dot com bubble is very different. Remember that at the time of the dot com bubble where many investors in the internet in America and around the world lost billions of dollars e-commerce was more of an idea than anything else. Banking online was in it’s infancy. Buying products from a website to be shipped to your address was hopeful and there were many many hurdles before the general population were ready willing and able to pay for products online. The AI bubble that appears to be fizzing is different in that the internet has proven itself to be a viable and effective technology for e-commerce that includes buying and selling just about anything on websites around the world.

    I believe with AI the many billions of dollars invested in it won’t be perceived as big of a loss as the dot com bubble burst because the internet is where everyone goes to interact with AI and the internet has proven itself to be a reliable and efficient at e-commerce. In 2025 Investing in starting a business on the internet has many more similarities to investing in traditional brick and mortar businesses than during the dot com bubble and burst.

    Ultimately an investment in AI is an investment in technology that relies very much on human input. There is risk in investing. Surely there will be investors who make great financial achievements with AI. AI has grown by leaps and bounds from when it started. This is good. AI will help business and consumers alike. It’s important to be very careful when investing. AI was narrated as the next big thing in technology and in many ways it is. That doesn’t mean everyone can expect to make a profit with it.

  • Leaders need followers and followers need leaders. One is not better than the other.

    Sometimes it’s difficult to be alone. Then in one moment the difficulty is gone and being alone is easier than having company. Being independent is learned out of necessity. When the environment an individual grows up in is not safe and the people in it are not safe to be around, the individual often learns how to live independently without relying on one other specific person. The individual learns to rely on themselves more than any other person.

    It’s good to have friends and it’s good to have a social life and it’s good to have people around and not be by yourself the whole time.

    Still for an independent person it is not simple to be social all of a sudden. Social skills are like a muscle. Flexing your social skills takes time and repetition to get good at. A person who has many independent characteristics needs time being around a few people and talking to them to be comfortable in larger social settings around more people. This is how a person with limited social skills strengthens their people skills. Taking small bites.

    I could only imagine that an individual who is skilled in social situations might have a difficult time functioning independently all on their own with out the help of a specific person. People are that way. If you are used to being around people all the time you would probably have a more difficult time going independent and making all of your decisions on your own without input from specific people you’re used to socializing with.

    Leaders need followers and followers need leaders. One is not better than the other. They are both vital  and valued in humanity and in society and in success and in failure.

    Learning from many failures can lead to success. One success may be all that’s needed.

  • My past to present and advice if you’re addicted to illegal drugs.

    Multicultural people standing together isolated flat vector illustration. Cartoon diverse characters of multinational community members. Society and public concept

    MEMORIES

    A movie can create memories as it is being watched. A movie can also revive old memories. Social settings also create memories and can revive or “bring back” to consciousness old memories. Social settings can also bring back recent memories. Watching a movie with another person is a social setting. It’s different than watching a movie alone. Being around another person and with people are social settings. Movies that are interesting can be captivating. I’m at home in my office at my desk writing this blog post. It’s a lot different than watching a movie. In a movie a man is in his home office at his desk typing onto his computer. There is a big difference here now logged onto my account with WordPress typing this word than browsing somewhere else online to watch a movie. Many things create memories. People, places, things. The longer I sit here typing the more memories I’ll create onto my computers memory and onto my account with WordPress and here in my home this morning in my office at my desk.

    THE PAST

    It’s good to be very far away from negative influences, the people, the scenes and the places I used drugs in.

    THE PRESENT

    It’s good to be here at home safe. My home is in a safe neighborhood. I say hello to my neighbors when I see them and they greet me. I volunteer with a local organization supporting people living in poverty. I believe in the cause. I’ve made friends I volunteer with. We support each other. We encourage each other. We look out for each other. We talk and walk and share meals with each other. We help people in poverty with their problems giving them food and clothes. We organize Doctors and Dentists and Opticians who volunteer their services to our members. We organize Attorneys who volunteer their services to our members who have been exploited at work and have been taken advantage of at home.

    ADVICE

    If you or someone you know use illegal drugs you can get help stopping. Help quitting and help leaving it in the past. Not only is cocaine illegal to possess and to use it is also very dangerous. If you are addicted to cocaine you might need to recover in a hospital. Drug addictions cause many problems on your health. Every time a person uses illegal drugs they are risking their health and their safety and their freedom.

    A drug dealers goal is to sell drugs. He or she doesn’t care about the well being of the buyer. They don’t care about the buyers safety. They don’t care about the buyers freedom. They care about making money and they create addicts selling illegal drugs. The buyer is the victim. The seller is the perpetrator. Both are complicit. Both get caught and brought to justice. Both the buyer and the seller get caught selling illegal drugs and possessing illegal drugs. The consequences can be very steep and are there for the safety and health of everyone effected by narco traffickers and the buyer of illegal drugs.

    Most addicts can’t simply up and leave and move very far away out of state far across the country to a new community and make a fresh start. If you are addicted to illegal drugs the act of buying illegal drugs is playing with fire. You might get burned. Not only are you risking your health and safety and freedom, the people you know who are not using are effected by your use of illegal drugs. Their health and their safety and their freedom are all compromised in proximity to your use of illegal drugs. People die every day from using illegal drugs. People are brought to jail and incarcerated every day for using and possessing illegal drugs.

    An innocent victim is someone who lives a normal life and not involved in illegal activity and gets caught up in someone else’s illegal drug use or the sale of illegal drugs. Innocent victim’s are often the children of parents using or selling illegal drugs.

    Be a source for safety and security and freedom for victims of illegal drugs. If you want to leave illegal drugs in the past you need help. It’s a very important action to do, seeking help if you are in an environment where there is illegal drugs. You need to leave the environment to a safe place. The safe place might be a church and a church is not there to help ween you from the dangers of illegal drugs. A church might be a safe place and where you can receive spiritual guidance. Going to church works for many people for their reasons. You might need direct intervention from a professional who can extract you from an illegal drug environment for good.

  • Volunteering feels good. It feels good to help people. At our organization we have volunteer attorneys, volunteer doctors, volunteer dentists and volunteer opticians. Many of our volunteers do not have as prestigious titles at work. Many of our volunteers help in our organization donating food and clothes to people who have a difficult time affording food and people who can rarely afford to buy clothes.

    Here in Southern Oregon I am safe at home. I live in a safe neighborhood. I receive SSDI. I can afford to pay rent and buy groceries. I went back to work part time and am able to save money. The whole truth is when I started volunteering last fall at our organization in the larger community in Rogue Valley my eyes have been opened.

    My part time work is for a temporary work agency. When there is work to be had I can work. Since I started volunteering I signed up for less work opportunities and spent much of my savings. The opening of my eyes to humans in need helps me to volunteer my time with my hands, handing out food and clothes.

     I also see the need to rise up out of relying on SSDI. I spent some of my savings to become a business consultant late last winter. Since becoming a business consultant this Spring I pivoted the designation of my business to advertising. I have a lot of work to do to advertise other businesses in Rogue Valley.

     I need to sign up for more temp work agency jobs to save money. It’s important to save money safe and secure. I choose putting my money I earn directly into my bank account. I don’t have the problems earning money that people I volunteer to help do.

    Yesterday with our organization a group of us volunteers went into the community into a residential neighborhood and knocked on peoples doors canvassing. We signed up new members and filled in forms for our new members who have benefit requests. One new member needs his teeth to be cleaned and needs to meet with a Doctor about his ulcers. Another new member needs clothes. The neighborhood we went into was mixed use. There were some stores and some houses and apartments.

     One apartment we went to on the side of a busy street was barely safe. The way it was designed was so that the living quarters are cramped. The hallway is just big enough to walk single file through, or very carefully around a person walking in the opposite direction. The hallway is narrow. There are cigarette filters all over the floor of the hallway and graffiti on the walls of the hallway. It’s clear that the owner of the land these days the property is on has not put money into the safety of the apartment.

     Graffiti has many purposes. Graffiti can inspire and lift people up and is created with the permission of property owners. Graffiti can also intimidate people and is created without permission to mark territory. The graffiti in the apartment was there to mark the territory.

    The new member we signed up who needs to meet with a doctor is an elderly man, his working days are over. The younger man we signed up as a new member who needs more clothes works in a field.

    Much of the land that is Southern Oregon is an agricultural fortune. Many kinds of food are grown in the region. Grapes and Pears are two of the most grown foods in the region. Most of the Grapes grown in the region are used to make wine. There are many marijuana farms in the region.

    Today I’m going grocery shopping. I’m going to drive to a grocery store and fill a cart with food that will last me through the week. The grocery store I often go to is filled with fresh vegetables and fruit. All the food I need to eat I can buy in the grocery store and take home and fill the kitchen with.

    I feel fortunate living in an environment and neighborhood that is safe where there are no known gangs. Gangs and illegal drugs go hand in hand.

    It’s good to have legitimate work. At the temporary employment agency I get paid over the counter. When I work the money I earn is deposited directly into my bank account. I grew up trusting banks with my money. Some banks have been in news for funding terrorism and for stealing from their account holders. I am confident where I bank my money is safe and secured.

    The organization I volunteer with is one of a kind and one of many sister organizations across the country. We are Northwest Seasonal Workers Association in Medford Oregon.

  • Perception and value

    Something good about dust is the fact that on still objects dust can be removed. Dust accumulates on objects that are still. Objects at rest remain at rest and collect dust. If the dust is cleared away regularly, value and condition objects are in remain the same. I’m glad I haven’t made a sale yet. I don’t have time yet to follow through and nurture the relationship made when a potential customer becomes a customer by making a purchase.

    Making a sale might not be too hard and when a buyer is left with a product from the owner of a business, they bought from, the owner of the business is wise to make time to answer phone calls from the buyer and answer questions the buyer has about their product and answer questions the buyer has about the business and answer questions from consumers.

    The owner of the business that sold the product might have legal responsibilities to service the product and as the seller, has a social obligation to the buyer. Do business in the open and in a bright light where you are comfortable and confident speaking to the people there and where you have a good view of the specific sales environment. A business that appears and makes sales, then disappears is called a scam and rip-off. Be careful where you spend your money and who you spend your money with. Money doesn’t grow on trees.

  • Health, money, property, land time management

    I am a success story

     Since I got back into housing and through taking my prescribed medication every day, my mental health has improved very much. I went back to work part time. And I started a business. That’s right I am a business owner. My business is registered with the Secretary of State of Oregon’s Office to do business in Oregon and where it is based in my home office.

     I rent my home. It’s not mine in the sense of the land and the building. I own my business. I own the tools and supplies that make my office what it is. I own my minivan and everything in my home. The space I occupy in the apartment and parking spot I lease.

    I am an entrepreneur with potential

    My business is in my name. I am the owner of it. My business goes with me when I leave my office and goes with me in to my community and to the persons who I introduce to my business. My business is three months and about 9 days old. My business is in it’s infancy. It took a lot of time and money to start my business and create sales tools.

    My time is precious

    I need to work for an hourly wage with a local and credible business I have experience working for and increase my savings, to invest time in my business. My business doesn’t breathe like a human and doesn’t eat. My business needs more of my time to develop and it is in perfect condition. My business is paused until I have saved enough money to invest time to make sales.

  • Putting the past in it’s place

    Co-vid is over people. Co-vid is long gone. Co-vid has been over for years and years. It’s old news. It’s not news today. It’s creepy when someone says because Co-vid and list reasons why their business is doing poorly. Co-vid was terrible, it lasted for years, many people died. Many people lost their businesses and their savings.

    Co-vid is over. The pandemic is over. The pandemic and co-vid are gone and of the past and the reason why I’m bringing them up is to say people come across as a winey fool when bringing up co-vid like it’s a current matter. The only current topic co-vid relates to is few and far between people who are holding onto co-vid like it’s a thing and have a difficult time living in the present Spring 2025. For years the vast majority of people are not suffering from a rampant contagious disease.

    And for years people are not being asked to shelter in place. The only place where co-vid should be in today’s world is a memory of the past. Don’t let the past take too much time today. Successful history teachers know to live in the present, moment by moment and know how to put a history topic whether it was good or was negative in the context of the past.

  • Long ago through to current day

    I remember when I was a young boy I had recurring dreams of being in a Mall. It was the mall in my home town. The town where I was born. A indoor mall. In my dreams I was in a clothes department hiding under a rack of clothes. I was scared, anxious and alone. This dream reoccurred to me many times at night asleep. Since then that Mall closed and was demolished. In it’s place is an open air mall on the same foot print of land. It takes up more land today.

    As a young boy my dreams got worse. In my dreams the mall closed and was vacant and dormant. Locked up. No business signs, no cars parked in the sprawling parking lot. Almost like in a ghost town. Sometimes in those uncomfortable dreams at night while asleep I had no where to go. I had no shelter. I crawled through a hole in a wall into the indoor Mall escaping from an unknown danger. Those dreams while asleep at night also reoccurred. I haven’t had those uncomfortable and severely uncomfortable dreams in many years.

    At night in my home safe asleep in my bed my dreams have evolved. I’m a middle aged man. Snapping out of an uncomfortable dream at night while asleep in bed is much easier for me to accomplish. I’m the same human I was 35 years ago and many things have changed. I’ve grown a lot and I moved. I live half way across the country from the town where I was born.

    People have changed in 35 years. The same people who scared me, who I felt anxious around and felt unsafe near are no longer in my life. I moved on and away from those people and predicaments. Far away to a community that was new to me.

    I have many people to thank for helping me leave those dangerous problematic people far far away. Many people helped me when I arrived in the community where I live. Volunteers donating their time gave me food when I was hungry. Volunteers opened up shelters for me to sleep in at night safe and secure and warm protected from the elements. People I did not know helped me, volunteers.

    Tax Payers helped me. Social Security Disability Insurance was awarded to me. From every year and month and days that become weeks, the accumulation of work I’ve done paying taxes helped fund Social Security. I got help applying for SSDI and eventually was awarded SSDI. I have so many people to thank. People I have not met in person helped me working in Social Services.

    I’m alive and well today thanks to the help of many people. Doctors created medicine in a laboratory I receive as a prescription helps me with my mental health. I am very fortunate the medicine I need for my sanity is available at pharmacies and I have a prescription for. I have very many things to be grateful for.

    It feels good here in my home I lease. It’s not my own home but I can buy residential real estate in the future. In my future. Not a future in real estate terms that is sold like a time share. A piece of land with a house on it I buy and live on. The future. Life is good. The people in my life support me, encourage me and care about me.

    I was asleep at home in my bed 20 minutes ago. My dream got a little bit awkward. I snapped out of it and woke up. Reflecting in my minds eye where I was dreaming about earlier tonight helped. Awkward moments happen sometimes. I’m not immune to feeling awkward. Sometimes when I’m somewhere like a mall for the first time there might be an awkward moment while I’m adjusting to being in the environment.

    An awkward moment might happen if someone says or does something inappropriate. It might not be terrible and at the same time is uncalled for behavior. Everyone is different. Often an awkward moment can pass in a few seconds or a minute with no harm done, no intentional foul.

    I think that is one of the beauties of life. There are many people living together. Some people live alone. In public now I am not. I am in my bedroom at my desk. When in public everyone doesn’t behave the same. We all have heart beats, and our own breaths and facial expressions. People are in public for many reasons. Many different reasons. There are people to avoid and there are people to share time together with, enjoy being around and learn good lessons from.

  • Conflict resolution might be easy to speak about

    the boy and girl are not speaking

    I read a message on a news report today that said “who are you fighting for? It made me think of many years ago when I was a young boy. When I was a young child my parents separated, divorced and moved far away from each other. Me and my sisters were split between two homes. Our parents held a lot of anger and resentment toward each other. Their negativity toward each other was clear to us kids. Although we were not encouraged to fight with our fists. The statement “who are you fighting for” brought back a memory of those tough times when us kids were being told two very different stories from our parents.

     At a young age we relied on our parents for everything. It wasn’t until we moved away from our parents homes into the world and on our own when, speaking for myself I had a sense of relief. When parents quarrel, their kids might be brought into the argument and sending mixed messages are a result.

     One parent says one thing, the other parent says a different thing. That’s a mixed message. When kids are young and rely on their parents for everything and get mixed messages from their parents those messages have a large effect and cause problems in a family.

    Some parents argue then work it out and are stronger because they communicated through their problem to a solution. That’s better for the whole family.

    When parents argue sometimes the only thing that gets them to stop arguing is time and space and distance. They have to separate for their own health and for their children’s health. An argument can get so divisive that the solution is to move away from each other into different homes.

    Unfortunately this happens more these days for the reasons a couple have to call it quits. A couple of adults can get pregnant quick and if the couple are not meant to be together lives are changed. Sometimes it makes sense for a couple who are pregnant to separate. Better to call it quits than to be in a violent relationship.

    That brings me back to the news report about “who are you fighting for”. Us kids were not encouraged to fight with our fists. Boxing is a solution for many families. If you are a Boxer you know that challenging an opponent in a ring is much better than fighting without gloves. A Referee can help keep both Boxers from throwing punches below the belt and call off a Boxer who has clearly wounded their opponent before lasting harm is caused. Boxing is a dangerous sport and better than fighting without gloves.

    Communicating through a problem to a solution is better for everyone. No injuries, no injury. Agreeing to disagree is one way to cool off. Revisit a topic with a cool head. Take time with words from the disagreement instead of counteracting immediately.

    People in a party don’t see eye to eye on everything. There might be a leader of the party most people in the party agree with and if you consider everyone in the party, it doesn’t mean each person sees eye to eye on every matter. There might be a clear leader and is doesn’t mean that everyone in a party agrees 100% every time.

    There are challenges in life. It’s good to have challenges. A challenge can teach a person things they never thought were possible. Managing one challenge at a time is a good plan. Sometimes there are multiple challenges, and a good practice might be to give each challenge a different timeline. There is one you. If you have multiple challenges, it’s not simple to schedule them apart. You might not be able to afford to hire an assistant to help manage your responsibilities at home and at work.

    People are faced with challenges every day. A challenge doesn’t need to become violent. There might not be a reason to box it out. Talking through to a solution is better.

    “fight the good fight” is confusing. It’s a blanket statement without more words attached to it. There’s only enough room for one winner of the blanket. Fight the good fight a referee could say and make more sense to start a boxing match where opponents wear gloves, and stand inside a ring. More sense than taking it to a street with no rules.

    It’s important to get enough exercise. Some people get their aggression out safely in a wreck room.

    Learn to control your aggression and maybe you’ll never need to be violent to defend yourself or someone else.

    Think then act

  • At a bar in town it’s almost last call

    It’s almost 2am. I’m in my home office at my desk. There are things to do. Often over the years I wake up early in the morning around 2am. I’m awake for a while then go back to sleep. It’s a cool spring night. There’s not much going on here. My neighborhood sounds quiet from here inside. In town it’s close to last call at a bar.

    Asleep in bed in my dream I was at an airport. Present day. A woman was having sex on a table in front of a group of people. Another woman was sitting on the smooth solid floor with her back against the wall and legs straight out in front of her. I walked to her and offered my hand to her. We walked away and left the airport together. I don’t know the name of the city where we were in the airport. We left on foot. She didn’t need to fly on an airplane. We left together.

    My grandparents had a membership to the Ogden Golf Club. When we were young children my sisters and I would visit our grandparents in summer. They brought us golfing at the club. I remember mostly practicing with a putter. The club had a pool were we went swimming and ate lunch at a restaurant. Back at our grandparents home my grandpa showed me a coffee cup with a hole in one message imprinted on it he won at the golf club.

    Earlier in the day I visited a book store. I’m 47. A woman at the book store sold me a Magazine about Oregon and told me of a good restaurant near the coast. The woman is beautiful. Her smile is pretty. The shirt she wore at work covered her tits. I thanked her for selling me the Magazine.

    Life is good