Since I got back into housing and through taking my prescribed medication every day, my mental health has improved very much. I went back to work part time. And I started a business. That’s right I am a business owner. My business is registered with the Secretary of State of Oregon’s Office to do business in Oregon and where it is based in my home office.
I rent my home. It’s not mine in the sense of the land and the building. I own my business. I own the tools and supplies that make my office what it is. I own my minivan and everything in my home. The space I occupy in the apartment and parking spot I lease.
I am an entrepreneurwith potential
My business is in my name. I am the owner of it. My business goes with me when I leave my office and goes with me in to my community and to the persons who I introduce to my business. My business is three months and about 9 days old. My business is in it’s infancy. It took a lot of time and money to start my business and create sales tools.
My time is precious
I need to work for an hourly wage with a local and credible business I have experience working for and increase my savings, to invest time in my business. My business doesn’t breathe like a human and doesn’t eat. My business needs more of my time to develop and it is in perfect condition. My business is paused until I have saved enough money to invest time to make sales.
I remember when I was a young boy I had recurring dreams of being in a Mall. It was the mall in my home town. The town where I was born. A indoor mall. In my dreams I was in a clothes department hiding under a rack of clothes. I was scared, anxious and alone. This dream reoccurred to me many times at night asleep. Since then that Mall closed and was demolished. In it’s place is an open air mall on the same foot print of land. It takes up more land today.
As a young boy my dreams got worse. In my dreams the mall closed and was vacant and dormant. Locked up. No business signs, no cars parked in the sprawling parking lot. Almost like in a ghost town. Sometimes in those uncomfortable dreams at night while asleep I had no where to go. I had no shelter. I crawled through a hole in a wall into the indoor Mall escaping from an unknown danger. Those dreams while asleep at night also reoccurred. I haven’t had those uncomfortable and severely uncomfortable dreams in many years.
At night in my home safe asleep in my bed my dreams have evolved. I’m a middle aged man. Snapping out of an uncomfortable dream at night while asleep in bed is much easier for me to accomplish. I’m the same human I was 35 years ago and many things have changed. I’ve grown a lot and I moved. I live half way across the country from the town where I was born.
People have changed in 35 years. The same people who scared me, who I felt anxious around and felt unsafe near are no longer in my life. I moved on and away from those people and predicaments. Far away to a community that was new to me.
I have many people to thank for helping me leave those dangerous problematic people far far away. Many people helped me when I arrived in the community where I live. Volunteers donating their time gave me food when I was hungry. Volunteers opened up shelters for me to sleep in at night safe and secure and warm protected from the elements. People I did not know helped me, volunteers.
Tax Payers helped me. Social Security Disability Insurance was awarded to me. From every year and month and days that become weeks, the accumulation of work I’ve done paying taxes helped fund Social Security. I got help applying for SSDI and eventually was awarded SSDI. I have so many people to thank. People I have not met in person helped me working in Social Services.
I’m alive and well today thanks to the help of many people. Doctors created medicine in a laboratory I receive as a prescription helps me with my mental health. I am very fortunate the medicine I need for my sanity is available at pharmacies and I have a prescription for. I have very many things to be grateful for.
It feels good here in my home I lease. It’s not my own home but I can buy residential real estate in the future. In my future. Not a future in real estate terms that is sold like a time share. A piece of land with a house on it I buy and live on. The future. Life is good. The people in my life support me, encourage me and care about me.
I was asleep at home in my bed 20 minutes ago. My dream got a little bit awkward. I snapped out of it and woke up. Reflecting in my minds eye where I was dreaming about earlier tonight helped. Awkward moments happen sometimes. I’m not immune to feeling awkward. Sometimes when I’m somewhere like a mall for the first time there might be an awkward moment while I’m adjusting to being in the environment.
An awkward moment might happen if someone says or does something inappropriate. It might not be terrible and at the same time is uncalled for behavior. Everyone is different. Often an awkward moment can pass in a few seconds or a minute with no harm done, no intentional foul.
I think that is one of the beauties of life. There are many people living together. Some people live alone. In public now I am not. I am in my bedroom at my desk. When in public everyone doesn’t behave the same. We all have heart beats, and our own breaths and facial expressions. People are in public for many reasons. Many different reasons. There are people to avoid and there are people to share time together with, enjoy being around and learn good lessons from.
In news recently are reports of people saying having a relationship with God will relieve them of depression. I disagree and I love God. While some people’s depression might be relieved by having a relationship with God other people’s depression is more severe. A person experiencing severe depression might have been caused by a traumatic experience and requires taking medicine usually in the form of prescribed medication. Having good relationships with others can relieve depression. Good relationships with people are important. When you get along with the people in your life, social interactions become easier.
It’s easier to meet new people and make more friends when you get along well with the people you know. Humans have evolved to live together. This is how life is created. A man and a woman living together are often mates and bring new life into the world. Life is a celebration of moments. Every moment is not extraordinary. One moment to the next are usually ordinary.
A moment might be remembered as an incident and might pass by in the blink of an eye. Adults in business often talk about an incident in a negative tone of voice. For example, “there was an incident at work today” is an opening statement about something that happened at work that was not wanted.
For example, if there are people involved in a car accident it is usually described as an incident. The details of the incident include everyone that was involved. Some drivers might stop at the scene of a car accident to help. Depending on the size of the accident, all the drivers on the road might need to stop. If a car accident appears to be small less drivers stop to help, passing by in the blink of an eye.
When something good happens at work it’s usually talked about with a description explaining what was extraordinary, out of the ordinary. It was so and so’s birthday today. We brought cupcakes for everyone at the office to celebrate the person’s birthday. A birthday celebrated is an extraordinary moment in a long series of ordinary moments.
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